I am excited to celebrate our 16th anniversary today, May 5th. We are not giving each other gifts or going out to eat. Our celebrations are very private. We eat a home-cooked meal, hang with our kids, and bond. I like to spend the day in gratitude for our connection, and, quite honestly, he wants to celebrate everything in our bedroom with an amazing display of his Scorpio power.
On May 5th, there’s also the lunar eclipse in Scorpio. I am excited to celebrate during the eclipse, though I’m aware the energies could get very tough. I wonder how the Scorpio eclipse will affect my Scorpio man. Will the Scorpio energy be too much for him? Will he become more aroused as the Scorpio energy is sexy? Will he choose introspection?
Will secrets be revealed? I love secrets, and we have been sharing lots of deep, held back facts. Held for up to 16 years. Nothing major. It’s the little things that count. I am open to secrets flowing.
It has been a wild ride up to the eclipse. My lover already let me know the mood is not perfect for celebrating. My tactic tomorrow will be smooth. I’ll opt for meditation, writing, and poetry writing. Perhaps I’ll write him a love letter since this was very well received in the past and I only in 2023, after 15 years as lovers that I decided to write him (and share) a love letter. I did it as a fun thing, and I’ll probably do this tomorrow.
Please be safe during this eclipse (like if it was a weather storm) and be forgiving to people because everyone should be triggered.
I, Pisces, love you, Scorpio. I love your depth, your intensity, your sensitivity, and your sensual power. Scorpio, you rule my daydreams and my fantasies. I feel most fulfilled in your presence. I feel most feminine in your arms. I feel most powerful when I am noticed by you.
Scorpio, I am grateful that you are my perfect match, and I am your perfect match. You have what I need and I have what you need. We were made, perfect, for each other.
Thank you for noticing me within the sea of countless women, and especially thank you for choosing me over all the other Pisces girls who would have loved to have you.
Please know that my love is pure and deep and blessed by the light. I could only surrender to you. I can only be vulnerable with you. No energy comes close to yours. I am forever yours.
And Scorpio, don’t worry, I will match your intensity when you need it most.
Trigger alert ⚠️ I talk about sex, lovemaking, and long relationships here. Read only if these topics will not trigger an unwanted response in you. Thank you.
Dear friends,
Since I’ve been reunited with my beloved, lovemaking has been a dream. We have been under a spell of attraction, and we’re loving every second of it. If cameras started rolling and a movie was made of our lives, it would be a sexy romance. We were separated not because we wanted to but for work and family travel.
Today, a thought occurred to me. Is good sex or lovemaking the secret to a long-lasting relationship?
I was deep in thought, figuring out if lovemaking creates a lasting relationship. A long relationship would not be as fulfilling if the sex was not good for most couples (this post is very basic and does not cover sexless unions, which I know exist, but I’m not an expert in)
Great sex will cause this in your relationship
The better the sex, the least likely a couple is to cheat because we’re less likely to get bored.
Having great sex as their fun secret, a couple is likely to feel fun and relaxed to others and, therefore, be magnetic.
People who have great sex are likely to have high self steem since their bodies are the object of much pleasure to their partners. And people who have high self steem are likely to have more sex. It’s a sexy cycle.
Couples who have great sex are likely to have much more of it than couples who have less than the greatest sex.
People who have great sex give each other orgasms and regular orgasms might make the couples more relaxed and laid back.
People who have great sex might be in touch with their internal world due to heightened daydreaming and fantasizing.
Great sex will make you closer as a couple.
Couples who have great sex are probably much more open and honest when talking to each other since they’re very open and vulnerable with their bodies.
Couples who have great, regular sex might hold hands, hug, touch, look each other in the eyes, and smile at each other more often because they’re comfortable in their skin and comfortable sharing with their partner, and they crave their partner’s touch.
Please let me know in the comments what great sex causes in couples.
But will great sex cause a relationship to be long-lasting? To extend a relationship that without great sex might break up? Or could two people who are not right for each other stay together due to great sex?
What is great sex? Great sex is sex you feel lucky to have had. Sex you don’t regret. Sex you look forward to having again. Sex you feel lucky to have in your life. Sex that you remember with a warm smile. 😏 Sex that brings about much pleasure and makes your day better. Sex that results in 2+ orgasms. Sex that you never want to say no to. Sex that relaxes. Sex that makes you closer as a couple. Sex that you dream, daydream, and fantasize about. Conscious sex.
I don’t think great sex alone should extend a relationship that is meant to end. Also, people don’t only cheat because their sex life is lacking. They also cheat looking for emotional connection and support. I believe everyone should consider all aspects of their relationship when deciding to stay with someone or end a relationship.
There might be couples who have great sex and are not meant to be with each other. But they might not be as happy. There are many reasons to break up with a person, and I don’t think they should be ignored due to the great sex. People might feel afraid to leave a partner they have great sex with and be left with something worse. Yet again, nobody is perfect, and we should be patient (my lover was very patient with me).
My personal experience
Many years ago, before I started calling my partner beloved and started seeing our connection as God sent, we already had great sex. And I remember being quite bothered by our great sex. I wondered if the amazing sex was the best of our relationship because we were going through a rough patch.
Not that I thought the great sex was a bad thing, I wondered if there was nothing deeper. What would keep us together once the sex is gone? Obviously, I craved the closeness that would be in our future, our now present.
It’s possible my partner would have dumped me if the sex wasn’t great from the beginning. He is Scorpio, a very passionate lover, and he connects through sex. Without great sex, there is no connection. In fact, our dating would not probably have turned into a relationship if our sex wasn’t mind-blowing.
However, I thought we would break up because we were not as connected, and that is what I was after. So, both partners might feel differently, and it depends on how high the partners value sex. It depends on the people within the union whether or not to stay together. A partner might value physical connection more, and another partner might value an emotional connection. The partner who values emotional connection might be OK having less than great sex but the person who values physical intimacy would not settle for an emotional connection that lacks in the bedroom department.
Time to take great sex more seriously
In my unpacking the question of whether or not great sex extends the life of relationships, one thing I realized is, of course, it does. But more importantly, great sex should be taken more seriously as part of the foundation of a relationship. Later, we will get old, and we can revisit this topic, but while young and energetic, we can enjoy this gift.
I think great sex is an excellent tool to become more connected with our partner. And we should limit sex with not worthy partners because it can become addicting.
I will encourage all committed relationships who are not already taking advantage of the power of connecting through sex to start taking steps to a better sex life. There is always another deeper level of connection, and what more connected state of being than making love with your partner? Open up lovers to the power of conscious sex.
What a terrible day I had today with family drama.
In my panic, my beloved called. Immediately, I felt relaxed and protected, like surrounded by an angel even though he’s many thousands of miles away, and he could not physically help me. But his good vibes made me feel safe.
When I started writing about my trauma over my family’s situation, I deleted a post I wanted to share with you, but I was kind of embarrassed and on a different, much lower vibe and didn’t share the lovey post. It was called Valentine’s Love Letters and on it I was going yo tell you while I was away from my beloved on Valentine’s, I jokingly said I would write him a Love letter. Then I decided I would and I sent him 3.
I ended up writing 3 letters, which I took pictures of to share with you. I inserted a rose petal in each and put a drop of my signature doTERRA oils on each letter as pictured below.
I deleted the post when I fell into a depression and started writing about my trauma. But then, as the situation worsened, my beloved called to raise my vibe. This is why I believe in twin flames.
He asked if I only sent him 3 letters. I said yes, and why did he ask. He said he didn’t want to miss one because they were what he really needed to hear, and they went right to his heart. I was so touched that I cried. I shared my last letter with him, the gratitude Love letter I share last on this post. One I have not sent him yet, but I’ll deliver to him personally since I’m finally going home!
Valentine’s Love Letter Sexy and Romantic Valentine’s Love Letter10 Things I Love Most About You Love Letter10 Things I Love Most About You Love LetterGratitude Love LetterGratitude Love Letter
I wrote these letters in the middle of the night. I wrote at 2, 3, 4 in the morning. I wrote while my head rested on my pillow, and my penmanship really suffered. I was so embarrassed about the look of my letters that I considered not sending them to him. I was embarrassed to show them to you because of how really ugly they look. I thought my beloved might get offended that I’d send him such poor work, and I was concerned that I could have done so much better.
Yet, I overcame my embarrassment, and I sent the letters anyway. The letters touched his heart. Since I’ve been away for such a long time, he was feeling alone and even doubtful, and it just so happened that I answered his questions with my letters.
I hope you enjoyed this lighthearted post and that you feel inspired to share your love with your beloved also.
As high intentions as I had for the 222 portal, I have let my heart become quite close. I now am going through the “side effects” of this closing of my heart chakra.
I talk plenty of my powerful and miraculous heart chakra healing in 2020 with spirit and I thought that my heart was healed after that but now I’ve come to the realization that this is forever ongoing work for me as I close my heart off myself and then deal with much pain.
This comes not at the best time as I’m going into labor any time now, which is really exciting for me and I’m putting all my energy into labor and bringing this baby into the world but I must be at my best for the birth experience to be the best.
As I realized today (technically yesterday because it’s past midnight) that I have yet again closed my heart, I immediately turned to meditation and hypnosis, searching for a heart chakra opening hypnosis. I found a great one by Joe Tracy (linked 👇), the first time I did it, I fell asleep enjoying a tiny relaxation as my ego has taken over (I let it get so bad). Woke up and did it a second time and still it was extremely difficult to get out of my mind but I can’t go back to sleep. I’ll talk about this more friends, just in case my experience might benefit someone. At the end of the meditation Joe encouraged keeping a gratitude journal to help the heart open. So here I am, working on my healing. It’s super benefits right now as I’m finding it hard to even be grateful.
My midwife (not going to the hospital) who comes see me at home
My mom who showers me with love and gifts and her coming to visit for new baby
My birthday coming in 1 week
I just talked to both my sister and brother, it had been a while and my brother will be coming to visit soon
Grateful much for my health and my children’s health
Very grateful for nesting
So so grateful for all the DIY projects I’ve finished and I’m working on (if interested in this see my other new blog)
Grateful grateful grateful it’s Pisces season
So very grateful I can see the Pleiades and Sirius star in the early night sky
Grateful for the new moon and a new beginning for me
Grateful for this blog so I don’t have to actually get a journal
Grateful for spirit always supporting me through signs and synchronicities and letting me know what I need to work on for my healing
Grateful for YouTube free meditations and hypnosis
Grateful for YouTube hypno birthing and doula videos
Grateful for the rushes of energy I get here and there
Grateful for my doTERRA oils that just came in the mail today
In the end, I realize I have so much to be grateful for! God bless all of you reading and may you feel grateful about your life and situation no matter what you’re going through.
Lovely friends, I would love to share my latest Rumble Vlogs with you. These are every day videos I create with my dear children and some of my newest spiritual videos.
I’m also on YouTube just because I’ve had the channel for years, not uploading spiritual vids but have lots of older poetry videos there. Also the children vlogs. I’m not a fan on YouTube anymore due to their censorship, which is why I chose Rumble. Yet you can find me there as Eve Lovestar if you wish.
I am pregnant and expecting my baby within 2 and 3 months. Due to this uncomfortable health crisis the world is going through, I don’t want to go to the hospital, so, I hired a midwife to come to my house and help me with the delivery of my dreams: a water birth in the safety of my home. On this podcast episode, I tell you about this. I also talked about my previous pregnancy experiences and why I think twin flames should have children if they can.
I had an amazing dream! For the first time ever, I was able to go back into a dream to complete it or fix what was going on. I was lucid too even though I didn’t completely manipulate the dream although I sort of did. First of all, I’m pregnant and in my experience (5th baby) the best dreams come about during pregnancy. I also do a lucid dream self hypnosis most nights, it’s the one I engage in the most, see link below. I usually don’t have the desired effect or don’t remember my dreams although I’ve had some really amazing dreams after listening. I know when you keep at something truly believing in it, you succeed! I had listened to this tape when I had this amazing set of two dreams. I’ll explain the actually quite weird dreams below.
The background of my unconscious fear
My best lucid dreams have included my beloved twin flame 🔥🔥 and as I became lucid, I really got romantic in those dreams. They were the best ever! But I also deal with the unconscious darkness of my traumatic past, obviously. And for me, this unconsciousness deals with jealousy which is totally unfounded in my union because I was blessed with Scorpio who is much more committed than I am to a forever relationship, I Pisces. Even before our Union flourished, he never ever gave me the slightest reason to be jealous so this is not about him, it’s totally about me. So what’s going on? Simple my dad’s a cheater and he had many affairs, as a kid the biggest experience I remember from my parents’ marriage was my mom crying or looking through my dad’s pockets, my dad lying, and this was very traumatizing for me as a young sensitive Pisces child. This is why as a kid I made the decision to never fall in love and to never marry, because I saw marriage as a way for women to suffer. Then I grew up and met Scorpio, in an entirely new country. Scorpio taught me how to love, how to feel, how to be romantic, how to get in touch with my own emotions, and provoked a big dark night of the soul for me when he let me know the world was not the way that I thought. In other words Scorpio’s touch healed me. But of course the ancestral trauma is there behind my new found Love, there to be transmuted not to punish me. It comes through in dreams most often, because I have nothing to be jealous about. So especially in the past I often dreamed that Scorpio is with another woman or that he’s cheating on me then I feel sad when I wake up but it’s just a dream stemming from the unconscious fear and ancestral energies. Ancestral not just because of my parents, my grandmother was abandoned by her husband with three young children, maybe toddlers, he left her and then married another woman, my grandfather had already abandoned his first wife with two children. On top of that in my homeland Cuba, men are pigs, there’s no other way to put it for me. I grew up thinking men always have a side woman and one at home. I was totally confused and messed up!
As I said, this unconsciousness manifested through dreams. Well, it happened last weekend. As another piece of background info, during this pregnancy, I’ve not been feeling sexy at all, which is so unlike me and Scorpio has been left a bit cold. Well last week in my weird dream, Scorpio was with another woman. I was there oddly enough with my four children. But the weird part is he didn’t know these were his children. It’s like he had forgotten me! I woke up, felt him on our bed and phew 😅 it was just a dream! I cuddled right next to him and watched him with puppy eyes! 💕
I went back into the dream and fixed it
After realizing it was a dream, I went back to sleep and then the magic happened. I went back into the dream! How many times do we have a great dream and upon waking wish we could go back to it? Well even without intending to, I went back into the dream and suddenly I was in his house (which was actually a mansion) and this other woman wasn’t there. I then talked to him, let him know my children were his children and I asked him if he didn’t remember (you absolutely need to know this) giving me up to 5 orgasms on my bed (during one lovemaking session, I’m this blessed). He was surprised. At some point I told myself in the dream, well this is a dream (lucid) and went about to show him things that might remind him of me. Then things got very weird when the mystery woman showed up and he attempted to get rid of her and she didn’t want to leave. Again it was a set of two weird dreams but I was so amazed once I woke up the second time for this had never happened to me! And the end result was lovely.
My best previous lucid dreams were also during previous pregnancies. It’s one of the best parts of being pregnant. Scorpio’s fears also come through during his dreams. I’ve had other fears come through in dreams but the fear of being cheated on is the biggest I hold I guess. Wow it’s possible it’s worse than my fear or tyranny or communism because I never really dream about those!
Do you have any tips for lucid dreaming and would you share your experiences?
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Have you talked to your twin yet? Communication is a theme during this eclipse portal and it will last for about 6 months, so start communicating, if not in the physical, talk to their soul or higher self. The universe is conspiring so twin flames might talk and deeply connect right now.
My communication experience on eclipse day
My experience with communication on the full moon eclipse day was extraordinary. I’m not a big talker, I’m a writer, a thinker, and an energy worker. But on this day, I had many unexpected communications with my lover, our families, my children, friends, my toddler spoke, had many downloads…
My children talk a lot to my mom, and their grandparents on dad’s side and have been asking a lot more to talk to them, we don’t call our parents every week and should call them more. On the lunar eclipse day, within 1 hour both their grandpa and my mom video called me by accident, it was a sign of communication with family and loved ones.
Also I’ve been having very profound downloads, when I feel them coming it’s like an opening within my system and then, they settle within me. It’s like an evolution of my thinking, perhaps, also because we’re in Gemini season, my twin and I have our moon in Gemini. I forgot a lot of the downloads, those might not have been for you, but for me. I have been intending on having new thoughts and that’s exactly what’s been going on for the last week.
Post eclipse, twin flame communication evolution and understanding
I wrote the first part of this post on the day of the full moon eclipse, I realized that communication was going to be a theme between twin flame counterparts and I was right! The universe was about to very quickly and effectively show me how true that was!
The day after the eclipse, my twin and I got into an intense fight. He gave me the news in bed while I was sleepy, this triggered such an anger our of me! I exploded, I was screaming, so uncharacteristic! He then mirrored my anger. Everything we had kept pushed inside of us for 14 years that had not come up before, came out. We were pressure cookers and went off. Then we made up, we talked and agreed, it was so beautiful and divine timing. Talk to your twin to avoid this. What you have to talk about will come up, go over sensitive areas kindly as triggers abound right now.
Something twin flames lost a long time ago is returning now
Maybe it’s time for divine Union or maybe it’s time for your Divine Union to level up. This happens within my union where I think I am finally in Union and then I am shown that there’s a whole another level of Union that we can reach. And my union keeps on ascending like this during this incredible astrological transits. Something you lost a long time ago, For us it was about 13 years ago, it’s returning. This probably means that you’ve ascended and now you’re attracting that thing that maybe you were blocked to in the past.
What returned for us was so personal! But something that both of us thought about very recently. And so we engaged in that and it was, wow! amazing! And this brought us closer! And we talked about it, again communication is a theme this eclipse season, twin flame, talk to your twin!
I’ll tell you what came back for us, it was makeup sex! My twin loved it when we first moved in together. This is the time when we started to get to know each other’s shadow and reject each other a little bit, it was rocky times for us, rocky, rocky times. However, it was also our honeymoon period and we could not keep our hands of each other, this is what he said, and of course he is a scorpio.
My twin used to love makeup sex because even though we were not happy with each other during fights, we still could not keep our hands off each other and that’s hot for Scorpio. What happened is I didn’t love it, I said that wrong (he corrected me when I said this yesterday) I loved the sex but I didn’t like the idea of doing it without being happy with him and I thought maybe that was hindering our actually fixing our issues, maybe we were both right, eventually we were both in that mood to where if we fought we were withholding sex from each other, even he would do that, as a Scorpio, not a good thing.
I’m very happy for you receiving from the Universe something you lost before, note that you might have forgotten this thing since it was so long ago. If this resonated, let us know if you can share.
Synchronicities
I was just reminded he’s my #11 and I’m his #11. Seeing 1111? Me too. Here are the angel numbers I’ve been seeing the most this eclipse season.
111: you’re starting fresh, this is a new beginning, a reset.
444: to me, this is my twin flame’s higher self giving me messages, also, receiving a Pleiadian message, our twins and our guides are close by, guiding us! Ask for assistance.
777: angels are all around us, ask for what you need.
888: we live in an abundant universe. Manifest.
999: we’re closing chapters so we can start some new ones.
Sunflower and seed collection: my last Sunflower plant opened. This one is close to our house anddoesn’t get a lot of sun, it’s a smaller plant with smaller flowers but it has many flower buds on it! The top sunflower started opening the day before the eclipse. These sunflowers know when to open! My first one opened during 444 in 2020. My old sunflowers have died and now I’m collecting the seeds for next year’s garden, I should say I’m learning how to collect the right seeds for s very healthy sunflower garden next year.
Moonlight oracle card deck: my twin bought these for me months ago, but since they were shipped from Russia, I received them the day after the lunar eclipse. They’re moon cards and so lovely, I cried when I held them.
Moonlight oracle cards by Tatiana Vedenkina
Butterfly: 🦋 while writing this, I saw the most beautiful butterfly flying on a spot where I have never ever seen one. Butterflies signify change, and metamorphosis.
How are you feeling this season?
Many blessings for your journey, and please keep twin flame Union and Ascension in your meditations this season.
My Moldavites have wanted to stay off my body during the eclipse, it’s been most interesting because I wear them always and I have 3. At first, I thought I forgot them, then quickly realized I wasn’t supposed to wear them because I kept on forgetting them and even misplaced my necklace which is so unlikely. I believe it’s because I should be grounded and grounding the eclipse energies, not to be lifted by the moldavites! Intuition is a precious gift!
Update: in the afternoon, they called me and I’m now wearing them, I believe it’s to connect with my spiritual team.
I have been needing so much sleep and lots of water. And getting overwhelmed, sometimes, I didn’t even know why, just felt a tightness in my chest. Now, I feel like a wave is going through my body, it’s been intense but in a very good way. I’m excited about seeing the eclipse this morning. And the colors of the sunset were dreamy, the color was so different than usual
Many blessings and please keep twin flame union and ascension in your meditation.
Lovestar Temple🔥 🔥 