Tag: how to enjoy my housework

Dear diary,

Being more feminine is a goal of mine. I don’t have an end goal, but it’s a constant progression.

I ditched feminism because I had felt that I was better than men for too many years, and this caused separation in my union with my lover, Scorpio.

What I want now is to be more feminine because I now feel that being a harsh feminist made me less feminine.

I did notice that as I became more feminine, my lover became more masculine. Additionally, I feel safer, more abundant, more empowered, more powerful, and I feel more love. And I’m obviously a better mom now.

3 things to make me feel more feminine this week:

• Spiritual self care: I plan on taking a delicious bath today. I added flower essential oils to my soap, shampoo, and conditioner, and the lovely smell is making me want to spend more time in the bath. I’m going back to the basics here as I have written at length about taking spiritual baths, and I have had very spiritual experiences in that bath. I have been cleaning and organizing my bathroom, and this will help me feel more feminine: spending time in a beautiful space, smelling like flowers, dressing up afterwards.
• Deep cleaning my house and de-cluttering: loving my house makes me feel very feminine. 
• Expressing myself vulnerably: I have made a date with my partner to have a deep chat. There are lots of things I need to get off my chest, and this will make me feel more calm and relaxed, and it should deepen our connection, which should make me feel beloved and thus more feminine.

What makes you feel most feminine?

As a bonus, I’m making my kitchen my space. I never liked being in the kitchen, and I hated doing the dishes. I was able to convince myself to love cooking and especially cooking very fancy and complex meals. I was also able to teach myself to bake. I’m now, as I said, jokingly brainwashing myself to love doing the dishes because I only want to do the things that I love.

I put a diffuser right behind my sink, and I add my fanciest oils, Rose, Jasmin, and Geranium, which are my perfumes (together with lavender) to do the dishes. Now, as I do the dishes, I smell my perfumes, which are also the most relaxing oils to me. I’m a flower girl!

I only like to clean with music on and I’ve been singing and dancing in the kitchen more than ever.

We bought new dishes that I love to touch and look at, so washing them is a breeze, and it has worked wonderfully! Best transformation this month.

Finally, I’m allowing myself to watch TV. I think TV is a waste of time, and I don’t other than Naked and Afraid. Well, I can see the TV from my sink… whatever works.

A rewiring of my neurons is happening, and my house is so grateful. I’m grateful because now I don’t have to force myself to do human work. I love my time doing it, and I’m enjoying myself.

With love and light,

Eve, with my cleanest and best smelling house ever