As high intentions as I had for the 222 portal, I have let my heart become quite close. I now am going through the “side effects” of this closing of my heart chakra.
I talk plenty of my powerful and miraculous heart chakra healing in 2020 with spirit and I thought that my heart was healed after that but now I’ve come to the realization that this is forever ongoing work for me as I close my heart off myself and then deal with much pain.
This comes not at the best time as I’m going into labor any time now, which is really exciting for me and I’m putting all my energy into labor and bringing this baby into the world but I must be at my best for the birth experience to be the best.
As I realized today (technically yesterday because it’s past midnight) that I have yet again closed my heart, I immediately turned to meditation and hypnosis, searching for a heart chakra opening hypnosis. I found a great one by Joe Tracy (linked 👇), the first time I did it, I fell asleep enjoying a tiny relaxation as my ego has taken over (I let it get so bad). Woke up and did it a second time and still it was extremely difficult to get out of my mind but I can’t go back to sleep. I’ll talk about this more friends, just in case my experience might benefit someone. At the end of the meditation Joe encouraged keeping a gratitude journal to help the heart open. So here I am, working on my healing. It’s super benefits right now as I’m finding it hard to even be grateful.
My midwife (not going to the hospital) who comes see me at home
My mom who showers me with love and gifts and her coming to visit for new baby
My birthday coming in 1 week
I just talked to both my sister and brother, it had been a while and my brother will be coming to visit soon
Grateful much for my health and my children’s health
Very grateful for nesting
So so grateful for all the DIY projects I’ve finished and I’m working on (if interested in this see my other new blog)
Grateful grateful grateful it’s Pisces season
So very grateful I can see the Pleiades and Sirius star in the early night sky
Grateful for the new moon and a new beginning for me
Grateful for this blog so I don’t have to actually get a journal
Grateful for spirit always supporting me through signs and synchronicities and letting me know what I need to work on for my healing
Grateful for YouTube free meditations and hypnosis
Grateful for YouTube hypno birthing and doula videos
Grateful for the rushes of energy I get here and there
Grateful for my doTERRA oils that just came in the mail today
In the end, I realize I have so much to be grateful for! God bless all of you reading and may you feel grateful about your life and situation no matter what you’re going through.
During this 222 portal (2/2/2022 – 2/22/2022) challenges abound. I created a podcast episode to give you some divine messages to help navigate through these intense energies and come out the other side of the portal much more aligned with our higher self and spirit and to use these challenges to help with our ascension instead of being overwhelmed by them.
To get the full message please listen to the podcast through the link 👇
SpiritSong tarot reading for 222 portal challengesFour of feathers (swords) Bear. Sanctuary and rest. Bear 🐻 card meaning part 1Bear meaning part 2Ten of acorns. Donkey 🐴. Responsibility and dedication. Donkey card meaning part 1Donkey card meaning part 2The star. ⭐ Swan 🦢. Peace and healingThe swan meaning part 1The swan meaning part 2Knight of feathers. Coyote 🐺. Action and focusCoyote card meaning from the book.
Thanks for reading, listening, and supporting this blog. I appreciate you 🤗
With much Love and light and sending you much healing energy,
There’s so much to be grateful for this season! This has been an amazing time and I’ve been very blessed!
I’m grateful for my mom and her skills. Check out the lovely clothes she’s made for my new baby, due in 2022!
Handmade Crochet baby clothes
I’m also super grateful for the outfits she made for my 3 older girls!
Handmade Crochet matching outfits
And I’m so grateful for my mom’s generosity! She sent the 3 big girls beautiful dresses for Christmas 🎄
And yes, she sent Christmas presents for all the children and myself. She sent me a sewing machine, which I’m already using. I’m so grateful for all of this.
I’m very grateful for my mother in law’s generosity. She wanted to send us a gift card so we asked for our favorite store for the children, so we took them shopping for the clothes they wanted and needed! Always my favorite present.
I’m very grateful for my health and that the baby in my tummy is healthy as well. I’m feeling my best at 6 months pregnant!
I’m grateful for my new podcast Twin Flame Lovestars which is about 2 weeks old and I love to podcast so much! Check it out! https://anchor.fm/eve520
I’m very grateful that the school semester ended and my children doing really well on their tests (if you wonder, they’re in K12 online school). I’m also grateful that they have school online so they don’t need to go to a masked school or be asked to vax!
I’m very grateful for my oldest daughter growing up. Yes, I like babies and toddlers but I love having conversations with the big girl. She suddenly wants to be real clean and make her bedroom much better. I offered to remove the 2 young girls who, well, make huge messes in the bedroom but she doesn’t feel right about kicking her younger messier sister out of her bedroom, she’s just sweet 🧁
I’m very grateful for my 2 oldest daughters getting into writing. My oldest just wrote a children’s story (link below) and the second wrote a poem in school! I’m very proud and love the fact they love to share!
Children poem written by a child
I’m also grateful that they want to have their own channels, so I started both my oldest girls on Rumble.
I’m really grateful for finding a midwife who can come to my house for my baby’s delivery. Her service seems divine and I cried talking to her for the first time. I have to still tie some loose ends but I’m most excited to have the birth experience of my dreams!
Talking about mom again, I’m so so grateful for her! She gifted us a Christmas tree, we’re grateful for the tree! I’m grateful for having lots of energy this holiday season, we have decorated and made DIY decorations. I’ve been sleeping little…
I’m very grateful for all of you that have visited me this week and the fact that I had many more readers on my blog. Grateful that suddenly I want to blog so much more and I’m so creative.
I made beautiful napkins in red as part of my Christmas decorations, they’re so pretty. Today I watched my toddler boy get a small napkin and put his bowl of food on top. It was the cutest thing! I’m very grateful for my hands and their abilities and my inspiration.
Talking about the sewing machine, I’m so grateful to have it that I didn’t waste any time. I made a dress and skirt so far as Christmas presents and a lovely holiday dress for myself, planning on making a shirt as a Christmas present also and intend to never stop.
My twin flame and I are very grateful for manifestations of wealth coming to us at the moment.
I’m very grateful for my new transition glasses, loving them
I’m super grateful that it has been raining. We don’t get snow but when it snows up North, we get rain.
So grateful for my mom, the best gift giver. She even knows what to gift my twin flame. She made these booties for my baby.
I found myself in the presence of an older lady yesterday, I was telling her about my recent loss experience, she was encouraging. There was a sign on her wall though which really inspired me and I thought that’s exactly what I was there for. It was about gratitude.
“What if you wake up tomorrow with only the things you were grateful for today?”
I was super moved by this quote and was inspired to be even more grateful
So I decided to continue with my gratitude challenge and this sign must have been the sign for me.
What I’m grateful for today:
My twin flame connection. When I think of him, I think how could I be so asleep to take him for granted? He’s the best soul and the only one for me. Being without him would not work out.
My children.
My house, my car, my wealth
My garden
I’m very grateful for you reading this also, thanks for being here.
My garden: did you see my blooming sunflower 🌻?
Arts and crafts, I finished a crochet blanket for my toddler while I was going through the miscarriage
I’m grateful for friends who send me sweet texts and say sweet things, I’m grateful for presents and long talks.
I’m grateful for poetry and inspiration coming back.
Moldavite pendantMoldavites like to get close and personal with flowers. Spring flowers.
Ever since I started wearing my 2 moldavite rings, I have been feeling a desire to hike and be in nature, even in my garden. Since it’s spring, flowers abound! It’s a win win!
Now I am so grateful for my moldavite pendant, pictured above.
I’ve been walking a lot, I felt that the moldavites were giving me the energy to walk and when I found myself with my hands in a flowery bush I knew it was no coincidence!
In my video about Moldavite, linked below, I talked about the moldavites liking the soil. I found myself transplanting a plant and with my rings stuck in the dirt, I wanted to protect the rings and not bury them in soil! So when this happened, so fast, and so naturally, I paused and I understood that the moldavites wanted to be buried in the dirt! The moldavites wanted Earth, so I gave them Earth; the moldavites wanted flowers so I gave them flowers. Now whenever I see my flowers, I let the rings mingle with them. Our relationship (mine with the stones) has been very interesting! And I still have more to share about them too! They have such powerful personalities and I feel they can help me (and maybe you) accomplish the goals we set before, or meet the intentions we set previously, which would mean we also manifest the things we have been working on manifesting. I have noticed this in about 3 weeks of working with them.
Please support me on Rumble if you’re there. I share twin flame, starseed type of videos, now talking about crystals, and soon to talk about tarot and more as I get comfortable with sharing my personal practices.
And just to be clear, I was wearing my moldavites when I started grieving (per my recent post), they will not shelter you from pain completely, and they can’t protect you from yourself (my experience) but they will assist you and give you the energy to go on no matter what happens in the outside of you!
I started writing this post on Sunday, it’s Thursday now… I was unwell then, now I am in the worse predicament of my life. But I will not ever stop seeing the light. The farther I fall, the stronger my come back!
Today (Sunday) I’m grateful to be alive and mostly well. I’m very grateful for my spiritual and healing tools such as my tarot cards, my crystals, and essential oils. I’m grateful for epsom salts baths, and candles. I’m grateful for prayer and meditation.
I’m mostly grateful for my children. I’ve spent so much time with them this weekend! Playing with Legos and paper dolls, drawing and coloring paper dolls, gardening, and creating a new garden relax hangout play area.
Bad news stroke me yesterday, so I had to look at what I do have and be grateful for that. I was pregnant, went to have my first ultrasound and found the baby had no heartbeat. Now I’m expecting a miscarriage. It’s very sad.
I’m actually grateful that I’m doing as well as I’m doing right now. I have really stay as calm as possible. I have my spiritual team and my tools to thank for how good I’ve done. (Sunday)
(Thursday) now though, things have escalated. It started with my body being really sad. I could not feel it with my head, only my body felt it. I knew I was sad because my body was showing the symptoms, I was unable to smile or laugh, unable to sing or dance. I was just getting by… I guess I forgot to take care of myself during this crucial time and I just descended as low as I could. Now today’s lowest is not as low as this would have been 5 or gosh, 10 years ago! I’m so much stronger now but I still forget to take care of myself and my needs.
My connection is safe and strong, I will remain in union. And I will beat all the odds as I always do. Bit I have to dig myself out of a hole I dug. I don’t even know how to talk about this and I don’t know if I will to you, and I don’t want to bother you with my issues.
I will however continue posting as much as I can bear and in fact, I had really fell in love with blogging prior to my bad news on Saturday and so I shall blog as therapy also.
Love and light to all reading this, thanks for caring,
It’s 11:11 PM and that counts as Saturday for me, so left me tell you what I am grateful for today, it has been a great day!
Sodalite Heart and crystal
I’m so grateful for my sodalite crystal heart, it’s not brand new anymore but I’m now learning how to use it and the properties and uses. I am grateful with my meditation with this Heart this morning. I’m also very grateful for the bath I took in the morning.
I went to a new location of my old doctor today, I’m very grateful that it went very great. I took my Sodalite heart and my lavender essential oil, I even did a quick meditation while waiting in my room, I went through tests (because I’m pregnant) and I didn’t even feel a thing.
Eve garden 2021
I’m really grateful for new growth in my garden, I have baby plants coming up and new flowers, I was so excited I spent a lot of time there. I’m also grateful I just got my shipment of garden food, I’ll be upping my game by next week.
I’m grateful that it’s the weekend and what great weather I had! Again, it was just an amazing day.
Cool Etsy dagger
Awesome rocks, not sure what they are but they’re sure beautiful, both of these were presents from my beloved.
Finally, before it turns midnight, I’m grateful for how strong and healthy I’m feeling, being pregnant, I’m coming from a month of feeling sick and wanting to sleep all day long so it’s been awesome and I think it’s because I’ve been using my new essential oils for 2 days and I’ve been using my healing crystals.
I’m grateful to hat you’re here reading this and also I’m excited for the new moon coming up!
I’m so grateful I woke up today and decided what I was going to be grateful for 🥰
Today I’m grateful for my children, all 4 and the one in my tummy. 🥰 My daughters and I put together some cool poppy lego sets last night, I went to sleep so late but it was so much fun. This was my first real try at legos since where I come from, there’s no legos! So I think it was good for my inner child (who has never really played much, or had toys) to sit down and play with my 3 daughters.