Dear diary,
Note: I write about evolved Scorpios, and if I ever write about a dark Scorpio (I know one of these, he’s my uncle), it’ll be obvious.
I am so grateful to have a Scorpio as my beloved because he tells me the truth and nothing but the truth! I love the truth so much! In the presence of the truth, I smile (as long as it’s not a sad truth, I’m very comfortable crying in that case) but I have learned to not get angry at truths that sting.
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Dear Lovestar,
I have a new place where I’m collecting my poetry and I invite everyone who loves my poetry to join.
I’m sharing today brand new pieces from my collection.
I’m not sharing the secret naughty stuff I teased about on here. Nope, however, I do have a secret topic, and some of these pieces will be shared under this new topic. I’m a bit shy to expose this topic here, so I only want to share with my true supporters: true supporters, join through this link. It’s a totally free app.
For these poems and more secret, sensitive, and even naughty ones, click through this link and read them on my love art collection.
My poetry will be shared here first and will always be accessible here. In a few years, I intend to have thousands of free downloadable poetry here.
I’m collecting my best pieces of love and connection advice. The juiciest bits of this blog into bite-size actionable tips into a gallery. I will be using this collection.
I will also add videos once I’m done uploading all my poems.
Dear reader,
If you like poetry, especially the sexy kind, I found the mother lode, and I’m honored to flow these energies to you.
People coming through this blog really love the poetry. I need the journal, but I love the poetry most, so I’m happy it’s this way.
Hello, I am Pisces, and being organized is not one of my gifts. I lose lots of my poems, and I don’t remember them. I always dreamt of collecting all my poetry, but some might be lost for good. I admit, not all my poetry is great, especially the old ones. I’m not going to publish the bad ones, and I might pull ones I don’t resonate with anymore.
Portfolio is such a formal word that it doesn’t describe the fun energies of my poetry. Rather, I am creating a collection of my poetry mostly for me. However, I found a really fun way to share these poems, and this is an invitation to join.
Join only if you’re a true fan of this blog and if you’re a true fan of poetry. Reminder that this is only my poetry, so join only if you like my poetry.
Join if you’re a romantic, a lover, a twin flame, or how I like to call people like me a Lovestar.
Join if you need inspiration in love.
Join if you’re open-minded because there will only be my art on here, and not everyone agrees with me.
Join if you mix spirituality and love.
Of course, it’s totally free.
The poetry collection is available through an app. This is just wonderful for me, and I know it’ll not be for everyone, but if you would like to open an app on your phone and connect with my poetry, then it’s for you.
The app has poetry and not these blog posts. It’s my love art
There’s a secret topic on there with some new art that’s being born as we speak
The entire catalog of poetry will be available and separated by topics such as love poetry, sex poetry, inspirational poetry, spiritual poetry, Spanish poetry, Scorpio love art, a secret topic poetry, and something entirely new I’m not telling you about here…
The secret is I’m sharing my previously unpublished works… the really naughty stuff. This year, I’m certainly not getting a present from Santa! I was never going to publish these creations, but I decided my app would be for a small group of true supportes so I decided to let them indulge.
If you join, I can email you, and I’ll email you for certain to say thanks for your support, and this is the easy way now to get ahold of me.
On this app, I can also assign badges, and I just created my first badge, a Lovestar badge, which I assigned to my first supporter, who is my beloved.
This is brand new, but I hope to upload my videos to this app.
And on the dreams part. I have decided to show you the amazing lingerie I design and make by hand on this blog.
All the sensitive stuff, I’ll post there.
From this app, you can share any poem that’s not sensitive, and I have made many poems available for download totally free.
For future supporters: I will expect feedback on what kind of art you enjoy most and create that.
Finally, I really intend to connect with the other Lovestars out there, but obviously, be respectful and don’t dare hit on me or burn in hell. Sorry, but I felt that was necessary. Some idiot on my poetry creation app, Miraquill, literally commented to ask I talk to him in private and my hair or whatever. You know im totally taken and respect me as such, or my beloved will not share me with you anymore.
I really appreciate your support, and please let me know what you think.
Eve, hiding the naughtiest poetry and a lots of other stuff
Dear Lovestar,
The readers really like the poems, so why do I bother with anything but poems? I noticed you liked the old poems I posted last, and honestly, I thought they were not as good as today’s poetry, but you showed me…
Since I judge my old poems, I was quick to think that it was because of the art that my old poems received more attention. The art was really cute, and it’s also my art. I have not done poetry like that in quite a while, but you liked it, so I’ll try.
I have just spent the best weekend ever with my beloved. ♥️ ❤️ 💖 I’m not going to brag about the sex we had, but I did something new. He gave me permission to record our conversation, which I did. I don’t have permission to share the recording. However, I told him I’ll write about it. There’s a huge recording I have to listen to, but coming soon is wisdom from my beloved. This recording is going to be extremely sensitive, and I bet you I’ll get turned on listening. I can’t wait to see his response when I show him what I’ve gathered! I’m a new person now and I like this new me!
I lose my poems. I forget them. Most of them are fleeting thoughts, and when they come through my head and I like them, I grab them and write them quite fast. But I have been extremely unorganized with my love art.
I have always wanted to have all my poetry together. It’s a great big dream. On a giant book that I can page through, I do want the book handmade. Maybe I should make it easy for me. A coffee table book sounds fantastic. Of course, I’d like to publish my poetry! And that day is coming soon.
I also have always wanted an online collection of all my poems. I guess those are called art portfolios. I have thought long and hard of the best way to collect all my art pieces. I might have found the place to do it. I don’t want to share if yet because I only put several poems there because I’m only learning how to use it.
Are you psychic? Maybe you can guess the new topic I’m writing about… I have dropped some hints because it’s been on my mind since August. I finally discussed this topic with my beloved, and wow, I found lots of new information. ❤️
Drop a comment and let me know your guess. And if you don’t mind… which poems are your favorite? See below more hints.
I collected my favorite poems and realized that my favorite are not necessarily the best poems but are the ones that carry the energy that entices me the most.
I take this seriously and do my best to write with the cleanest energy. Not clean as in, not sexual. I am a sexual being. I just wrote two poems that speak about this. I’ll share as soon as I have loads of poetry in my new portfolio.
The new topic is:
Thanks for being here and talk very soon
Eve, about to write about twin flames again. I have lots of new info to share.
Dear Lovestar,
It’s not fair to Sagittarius that my Sag. poetry has only been pure fire. I need to get more acquainted with this energy to add depth. Since writing this, I already had several ideas. But for now, enjoy these poems, and as always, my intention is that these poems be dedicated to a special person. I dare you to share this love art piece with the person who makes you feel like this. Not for sex, please, but with the intention to connect deeply.
Come and feel my fire
I am burning up.
I will be the lighter
You can add some wood.
I noticed starting this year (2023) that I’m much more in tune with the changing energies of the zodiac. I now feel the subtle changes between a season and the next, and I’m starting to write poetry more in tune with the energy of the season.
I have been celebrating the Leo season with my yearly observance of the Lion’s Gate since 2018, and this year, I finally learned not to get triggered by Scorpio’s sword of truth that cuts through my illusions and I loved the last Scorpio season (check out the cool Scorpio posts I shared).
So far, I have handpicked my favorite energies and times to celebrate. Leo, because of the Lion’s Gate, and I already learned that’s it’s the most psychic time for me when I can hear spirit and a time for healing and union. Also, I benefit from Leo’s energy because I have issues with self steem, etc.
Scorpio because my beloved is Scorpio, and I am totally addicted to his energy. His energy is very wise and healing, and his insights are spot on. I also love the depth, and his love is the strongest, most delicious love I know. He taught me how to love. Scorpio also taught me how to be honest and handle honesty. This energy is also good for me because I benefit from the power, energy, and focus of Scorpio. My mom and grandma both are/ were Scorpios.
Pisces because I am one. When the time comes, I’ll tell you what I don’t like about Pisces and certain care we have to practice to be safe and protected. I work with this energy to understand myself, become a better person, and work on my mission.
Gemini because my moon is in Gemini, and it’s probably why I’m a writer, though I have lots of air in my chart. I want to use this energy to become even better at writing and at deep conversations. My lover shares the Gemini moon.
Aquarius because I think it’s cool energy and my vedic sun sign is Aquarius. My Venus is also in Aquarius, and it has helped me so much. Also, I want to get more familiar with this energy.
My children’s signs to understand them, learn to connect with them and help them best: Libra, Cancer, Gemini, Capricorn, Pisces.
New energy I’m loving: Sagittarius! My sister is one and a beloved cousin as well. I love their smarts. But there’s so much more depth and much more to learn.
I have a body in my soul.
Vehicle to walk and to run,
To feel, to human, to love.
To feel my soul was my goal
I wanted to feel its glow
I tried but did not know
How to connect on my own.
And then you taught me a way
To feel up to God all the way.
Thank you for helping me feel
That there's passion in my soul.
The trick was deep, deep Love.
I did used human as a verb up there. I used my poet’s license to create. I have an old poem that talks about my license to create, and I don’t remember it or know where it is now. I have lost poetry to collect, and I dream of creating a portfolio one day.
I wrote another poem where I referred to lovemaking as the way to tickle each other’s souls!
Love and light,
Thank you for reading,
Eve, inspired to write ✍️ right now
Dear Lovestar,
I loved my last post, “The formula for deep connection,” and I was so grateful to provide substance to you, the reader. I would love to become a match for such inspiration again. Don’t worry, I’ll still write about the twin flame journey and union, which is my experience, and I’m not about to stop writing poems. However, we all need basic love and relationship advice here and there. This time, I’ll offer even more basic advice.
Speaking of love… Before we can manifest total Union, we have to be in union, but before that, we must have a deep connection. Prior to a deep connection, we need to have a connection to deepen, but before that, we have to have a relationship.
As I have said before, there are levels to union, there are levels to connections, and there are levels to relationships. Would you like to level up your love life? I have a simple tip that is sure to work with anyone who is not a narcissist or a psychopath.
I chose to look at life like a video game. That seems quite detached. Yes, it is. It works for me. It helps me not feel the pain, and I can feel lots of pain (not physical). Better is always the goal. I would not tell you to do the same, and I do need some therapy. For now, writing and journaling are my therapy. FYI, I don’t play nor like video games.
I decided to look at love like a video game, too. In a video game, you are kind of detached because you’re not afraid of the outcome. It’s, after all, a game. In love, it’s not helpful to get too attached to the outcome, especially for women, because we’re very curious about our partner, we think too much, and we can become so obsessed we can drive ourselves crazy.
The outcome of a relationship is affected negatively by jealousy. The outcome of a relationship is affected positively by trust, love, kindness, etc. So I realized that being in my head about my new relationship when I was messed up (deep traumas surrounding men and relationships) was hurting my relationship. It wasn’t until I became detached from the outcome of my relationship that it became an union.
This is not advice for you. It was a defense mechanism in me for my survival. But it was helpful for me since I had a jealous thing going on to learn some detachment in my relationship after the worst of my dark night of the soul was over. I feared that my partner would leave me. After I drove myself crazy with my insecurities, I decided I would be OK either way, no matter what happened, just like in a video game. I literally convinced myself that I would be just as good if he left me heartbroken. Then, I became a match for union. It was a very interesting thing.
Note: My partner (who I now call my beloved and my twin flame) loves me, and he has a secure attachment style. He was healthy and safe. He was always trying to make it work with me even when I was giving him a taste of my crazy. It’s very safe to experiment with him. It’s not safe to experiment with any man. (Read my previous post, the formula for deep connection, and learn that a deep connection is only achieved with the right man).
Before I started my spiritual journey and started calling my lover twin flame, I had a sudden realization (I’ve been like this my entire life). I realized that in love, like a game, there is a point system. We gain points when we pour into our partner’s love cup, and we lose love points by breaking a boundary, being disrespectful, etc.
My realization was that the gaining vs. losing of love points makes the relationship positive or toxic. I realized this early in our relationship while we were both losing points and inevitably feeling less love for each other. I’ll tell you a secret: there was a time when we barely had any sex compared to our honeymoon stage or today. We were losing each other, and I firmly believe it was my personal healing that brought us back online and stronger than ever!
Back then, I thought that if I could tally all my love points, I could predict if the relationship would be a success or if we were going to break up. I didn’t keep a tally. That would be ridiculous and petty. But the tally is kept energetically! We feel love when our cup is full, and we feel depleted when our cup is getting empty. Similarly, one person alone filling the other’s cup is draining. One person filling their cup with their partner’s cup is abuse, and not pouring into your partner’s cup is neglect.
I’m guessing all games have levels, and guess what else has levels? Love is a level based game. I am not disrespecting love by saying it’s a game. It’s just the way I started seeing love in a better way. Before this, I thought love was a big fat lie! I figured I could level up my love life just like I could level up in a game. I didn’t know how to do it. That was maybe my union spirit guide. I would like to call him my friend, but he said we’re not friends, he is a guide, I am his student… Back to my point, I’m sure my spirit guide dropped that awareness in my head while I was still very dense. This has happened over and over again.
I have talked about some love levels, and I can feel a new topic being born. Most of us meet a total stranger and start from that level, moving up through perhaps friendship, courting, dating, entering a relationship, falling in love, creating a connection, deepening the connection, being in union and then deepening the union until total Union is reached.
We can discuss these levels, but a lot of effort and time are required to manifest the union stage, and most relationships will never reach this stage. I will take a screenshot of these stages to see what I can figure out about how to level up. 😅
I have realized that love is a game that will not be mastered in this lifetime. And I choose to be okay with that statement. It is a choice that is empowering to me. This might sound cheesy, but in the love game, it is the everyday work and not the destination that counts.
Love is not of this world, I feel. As Lovestars, stars for love, we’re downloading a new template of love and replacing the old broken ways of loving on Earth. It is honorable work, and it feels so good. We are upgrading and ascending love on Earth. We are way shoers in the love arena. We are the good love example we didn’t have. We are good for the planet. Let’s love with light.
The mastery then should be mastering the art of downloading new ways to love and connect from the spiritual realms where love comes from. This is, in my view, the art of upgrading love on the planet.
We need to upgrade love on the planet because the love patterns we’re learning and many of the love patterns we inherited are essentially toxic. Love here is broken. I don’t see love as an old-fashioned thing because I believe there has never been true love except love is in the pregnancy stage waiting to be born (we are manifesting it).
I see love as a deep desire to feel the way we felt on the other side of life, the spiritual realms. True Love is then something new we’re manifesting into existence. This is what I advocate for. A new world in and of love. There would be no wars, suffering, abuse, etc, if we could all love, but any shift towards a more loving world will make the world a better place. I’ll start today. Will you join me?
For the best, most healing connection, both partners should pour into each other’s cups. However, it would be so weird to request that love be poured into one’s cup. My advice is as much as possible, pour love into your partner’s cup. Don’t expect them to pour back in the same way or at the same time.
Communicate your needs. For example, I have finally taught my partner how to speak to me in a way that makes me want to connect deeply. It wasn’t easy because I didn’t want to speak and he can only read my mind when I’m thinking about sex… I already taught him how to kiss me 😆 🤣 😂 and it’s great because he would not have known what I wanted and he taught me plenty of tricks for how to touch him actually, so he has no idea that he’s “in trouble” because now I’ll ask how he wants to be treated and talked to.
How do I pour love into my man’s cup? I’ll name a few things I do currently:
And more. These are things I just thought of. It’s important to note that I’ve not always been this way, but as I healed, became spiritual, connected with God and my femininity, and shed my feminism, doing these things became natural. I didn’t cook for him when I was a feminist. Note that there are still traces of my feminism hurting me. For example, I hate to clean because it’s the old wife way to be while the old husband is out cheating… I have more work to do on myself, but I’ll do it in the safety of my beloved’s arms.
Thank you very much for reading, I appreciate you.
Books can be written on this topic, and there’s too much to say. I would love if someone asked questions in the comments that would prompt more helpful and action oriented posts.
With love and light,
Eve, writing too many posts at once and more good ones are coming
Dear Lovestar,
I don’t like to tell people what to do, so I usually only talk about my experience and leave it at that, but today, I had the brightest realization. I understand the title of this post sounds click baity, yet I will give you my formula for deep connection, which promotes healing and loyalty. That was a tall promise, but I’ll deliver. Some readers have come across the secrets by themselves and don’t need this. Some readers are very confused about how to connect with the opposite sex. 🤔
(more…)Dear Lovestar,
I am doing something new (I am constantly looking for new thoughts or new things to do by the way). I am writing a Spanish post where I am sharing my Spanish poetry. Now I will share the things I discovered about the compartmentalization of my Spanish – English conversation of Love.
Background information: I am Cuban and lived there for the first 18 years of my life (Funny that this year marks my 18 years in USA, and I should probably write about it before my 19 years). When I moved to the USA as an 18-year-old, I immediately started learning English (it was my beloved, an American man who would finish “teach me” English). As I started speaking in English and especially when I moved in with the hot American and my conversations with him were always in English, I also started thinking in English. I never expected that to happen, and I would like to know what other bilingual people think about this.
The reason I started thinking in English was because when I was first learning English, I would think in Spanish, then had to translate that thought to English, also in my head, and there would be a delay in any conversation for me to figure out the next thing to say. Eventually, I started thinking in English and it saved me time to not have to translate in my head and also, I had adapted to the American way of speaking, translating doesn’t feel original. Now the opposite happens when I speak Spanish, I am thinking in English, and I have to translate, and this is difficult because there are words and idioms that have no translation.
Something new happened when I was flying to my mom’s house for the Thanksgiving holiday, I started thinking in Spanish. I notice and celebrate a new thought or a new discovery of myself, I cherished the moment, and I started writing poems in Spanish. After having several Spanish poems, I decided I would share them here and maybe find bilingual readers who are lovers like myself.
Before I started blogging here, I used to try to translate my English poetry to Spanish. I learned that translated poetry is not the same, and translating poetry is very hard. I might be wrong, and I only speak two languages, but I believe there is a bigger interest in poetry and especially romantic poetry within Spanish communities and, I mean no offense but the best poetry I know have been written in Spanish. We have excellent poets like Neruda, Benedetti, and Jose Marti who have influenced me big time. I have been into poetry since childhood, then as a fan of those great, typically male poets. I recited a Jose Marti poem (“La bailarina Espanola”: The Spanish dancer) for years. I was the romanticized experience of watching the Spanish dancer dance the fabulous Flamenco with an anti-Spain sentiment because it was a time of Spanish invasion in Cuba (FYI my first big idea of a job was a Flamenco dancer and Jose Marti was born in Cuba and was the son of a Spanish couple, he would die in battle against Spain).
With such a rich poetry background and such a romantic bleeding heart, it’s no wonder I turned out how I did, also because a divine lover was fated. When I started writing poetry, I aspired to become the female Neruda of the present writing in English as his poetry feeds the soul and I should write about the poetry that influenced me, Shouldn’t I? I channel those great poets, but my art comes out from the feminine which has been sleeping for a while, but we are waking her up. She is coming up strong after her beauty sleep. I know there have been female poets, simply far less and I am here to represent.
What I learned analyzing my recent Spanish poetry was that they have a different flavor than my current English poetry and this long post is me trying to explain why. I have been thinking in English for the last 16 years and during those years there have been a lot of changes in my life and within me: falling deeply in love, having 5 children, several dark nights of the soul, self-discovery, the awakening of my divine feminine, the birth of my authenticity, self-growth, writing success (I said so), the birth of my spirituality, finding union, having certain mysterious conversations with unseen beings…
In short, the last 18 years have been of enriching my life, learning about myself, and learning to deeply connect. The previous 18 years were important too and were rich in their own way. The first 18 years of my life, in Cuba, I now see as the unconscious/ subconscious parts of me. Not at all do I look down on my experiences in Cuba thought it rained inside my house, lived in the control of communism, and I didn’t learn love.
As I said, my poetry is my poetic influence from childhood mixed with my own feelings. n top of my poetry, my arts and crafts are also influences from my childhood, so is my writing, my faith, my love for God, my faith, and much more. A big part of me, my inability to accept poor leadership which manifests as a rebelliousness is Cuban (from my family being persecuted by the demonic communists and me getting it big time in the communist schools too). The basics of me is my Cuban upbringing, my upgrades are my American influences of Love which awakened my inner connection to God which was always there from Cuba. I have finally understood that many of these Cuban things are things which I brought to this world with me, inner gifts.
My Spanish poetry speaks of missing my beloved. To be fair, at the time of writing the poetry on my flight, I was flying away from my beloved and missed him, but I had started writing them during my last night with him and this is what I mostly write in Spanish. My Spanish poetry speaks of wishes of love, wishing to be loved, dating, expressing desire, wishing for reunion, deep feelings that I am discovering.
My Spanish poetry is written as if I was a 20-year-old, still learning who I am and what is deserving of love in me. My Spanish poetry is a bit insecure, to be honest and might lack the wisdom I have learned to channel in my English poetry with maturity and spirituality. My Spanish poetry talks of the beginning stages of a relationship while my English poetry has gotten deeper as I matured. I used to talk about developing a relationship and being in love and today, I write about Union.
I spoke of the compartmentalization (and I did have to learn to spell the word) of my English vs Spanish conversation, especially in Love and poetry but now, I realized this is with everything. Parallel to my learning/ thinking in English was my falling in love with my twin flame which triggered healing and a spiritual awakening, and my English discourse developed with my consciousness. As I learned things about myself, I learned them, talked to my lover about them, wrote about them, and contemplated them in English, never really in Spanish. As a result, my Spanish discourse didn’t develop the same way. Only now do I see this as compartmentalization.
Compartmentalization has a negative connotation. I learned this when I looked the word up (researching for this not post, but rather article). And this is the missing piece of this let me call it entry of my journal. I do not know how this entry will end, this is automatic writing, trying to figure things out about myself to heal and become a better me who is an even better match for union and a better mother, and finally to be much more on my mission on Earth. My intention is to open the closed parts of me and let at least a stream of unconsciousness through and then decode it/ translate it through my mindless writing so I can understand the secret part of me which still guides me. It’s a skill and a very helpful one.
Compartmentalization (by now I can spell the word without autocorrect) is seen as being related to trauma, not surprised at all): Compartmentalization is a defense mechanism in which people mentally separate conflicting thoughts, emotions, or experiences to avoid the discomfort of contradiction. This definition is from Psychology today. This entry developed from me thinking of this word and then looking the meaning up to me connecting the dots to the realization of what always was obvious. The truth is that it was always difficult to speak of Love in Spanish. When I spoke/ thought in Spanish, I didn’t believe in Love. I thought love was a transaction where women accepted to give sex to men in exchange for men giving women attention. This was a trauma response because when I lived in Cuba, I never saw real love and I was missing a piece of the love puzzle, I didn’t know lovers could connect beyond sex and attention.
My contradiction was that as a romantic, bleeding heart, I didn’t believe in love and actually my heart had become damaged, and I was literally unable to love. However, though me came a great love and a great expectation of a deep connection with a male. The contradiction is that even though in my English vocabulary there are words like union and connection, and I can perfectly explain love and my feelings, in Spanish it’s not the same. I just remember another thing when it comes to my languages, I have never sworn in Spanish, was taught by my parents and I never started, so I don’t. Now, I think that swearing is ugly and unnecessary so I rather not, but I have sworn in English.
I will speak and write more in Spanish and when I do, I will be more authentic rather than trying to fit in with my parents for example. My parents are old school and no open-minded idea of mine will be accepted but I can influence in non-verbal ways too. I can talk to my sister in Spanish. I can finally teach my children Spanish. I can create Spanish writing prompts. I am starting to be conscious of the fact that upgrading my Spanish discourse will help me in some way.
I am not sure how to finish this, but I have written enough,
With warm hugs,
Eve
It was extremely fun to write a bunch of Scorpio posts and poetry during the Scorpio season because I’m a Scorpio addict. I am not a Sagittarius expert, though my sister is a Sagittarius. My Scorpio lover has his venus in Sagittarius, too. I do want to learn more about this energy and how to use it for my self growth and for union. I feel as though the first week of any sign shares traits with the previous sign. My cousin, who was born on the first day of Sagittarius, is mostly Scorpio, I think, and my sister would share Scorpio traits, too. Below, the fire love poetry. This first poem happened, and I realized I am feeling the new fire love energy, so for a proper channel, I’ll share with you.
You lit a fire in me,
A fire in my soul.
You lit a fire in me,
The fire of Love.
Bring out the heat
I need some now.
You know I'm weak
For your kisses
And your love.
You make me sweat.
Though I don't mind.
You make me feel
What others can't.
Bring out the heat
Of your desire
And your love.
Thank you for reading, and as always, will you dedicate one of my poems to someone special? If you do, please share with me.
With love and light,
Eve, at the airport at midnight… back to my lover!
Lovestar Temple🔥 🔥 