Vaccination in Communist Cuba left a trauma. Covid vax just triggered it.

Hello Lovestars and random vax internet researchers, 🤗

I’ve been lost from the blog for a while and decided to make a video to talk about it. I’ve been triggered so intensely by the current Covid vax mandates, threats, and blaming of the pandemic on unvaxed people like me! It hit me so hard, I was unable to meditate which is my mental health treatment, so I quickly descended. I admit I was so frightened! It’s so unlike me! I wasn’t praying which what??? How I survived is a miracle!

Certainly, when I meditated once more, phew, I felt God 🙏 and immediately felt better. It was like God said, daughter, I’ve been here all along, come close so I can help with your 😨 fear. I calmed down and was able to function once more.

Before I continue, I understand some of you have been vaccinated and it’s your body therefore there’s no way I would tell you what to do with it but I expect the same treatment. I’m not judging anyone except the tyrannical world leaders and the media.

I was born in communist Cuba, the hellhole island where the people are owned by the government, teachers hook up with students, and girls are imprisoned for sharing videos of police brutality, etc, etc, etc. There’s a lot of Cuban trauma in me and I’ve spoken about this here and there. I had not however talked about the vaccinations in Cuba and how much I was terrified of vaccines, I blamed the nurse and I hated the nurse. (I forgive the nurse and myself for my childhood hate). Let’s talk about it.

As mentioned, and if you know anything about Cuba, you know it’s under a 60+ year old socialist, communist dictatorship started by Fidel Castro (Fifo is what we call him), upon Fifo’s death, his younger brother inherited the Cuban throne and then he installed a puppet whose name I forgot because I don’t care about the loser. Talking about this makes me feel better and I’ve even openly talked about being raped in that awful place. It helps me to talk about it.

But today’s topic is vaccines! In Cuba they’re always mandatory except for kids who have certain diseases who are exempt. We were vaxed in school without parents knowledge or consent, the idea of consent in Cuba is pretty much non-existent! Just like girls apparently can consent to sex with much older adults, well, not really, girls are expected to stop all sexual predators and will be blamed for any predatory action they were unable to stop. We could not question. It’s a land where evil rules. Talking about this makes me feel better.

My memory of vaccines is one of extreme fear 😨. I was the only child in my class who was this afraid too so I was made fun of. My teachers would already know I was going to give them trouble, yet, I believe we had less vaccines in Cuba than the USA. I was only vaxed in elementary school and not middle school or high school.

The idea of little kids like that not fearing vaccines is incredible to me and foreigners alike. Well, not me, I was terrified every single time. Whenever the nurse came to school I could smell the alcohol and a panic would devour me. I felt hot inside and immediately tried to get away. My tactics never worked, specially because the teacher expected me to act like that.

Once, probably when very little, I hid under a table and everyone laughed at me, everyone could see me clearly and I was probably forced out from under there. I actually never cried, like I didn’t even cry when I was raped, I only cry for things most people don’t like inspirational videos, sweet romantic movies, and when my children do sweet things.

I used to also ask to go to the bathroom before it was my turn to receive a vaccine and the teacher, knowing I was trying to escape, would absolutely not let me out. Every time I had to get the vaccines. But there was one boy (only 1 ever) who ran away from school on vax day and he ran so fast, he ran past his home and, can you guess? He was made fun of forever, and yes, he was forced to get it later, his parents were probably pissed if they had to take him to the clinic. It’s like a thing where you should not be afraid which never made sense to me! I don’t remember anyone else not being ok with the pokes, which, for children, I can’t understand it.

I never had any kind of reaction, even minimal I must say and like I mentioned in my video, upon moving to USA at 18, I had to get many vaccines to be compliant in USA, I didn’t know if I had a choice, like many things when you’re an immigrant, you are not free to do what you want for a while, if you’re even able to break free. It was awful. I think I’m one of those people who are afraid of needles but actually, I’m not afraid of blood tests as much as I am of vaccines, yes, I was terrified the first times but now, I’m ok with that.

Then a person I know, who wears her liberalism on her sleeve dared send me a text about biden mandating vaccines for workplaces, it deleted the text and have stopped talking to this person unless necessary, and I have started to not tolerate liberals well, due to biden’s disastrous reign, I have always been very tolerant but now, I hold liberals just a bit away from communists. Actually, when she talked to me of this I told her I’m not triggered, I wasn’t, until I watched the damning video myself. I was speechless to watch a “president” threaten the people like he did. He was so hateful and I had put USA in a pedestal, I admit, but I never in a million years would have expected that kind of rhetoric here. My beloved is an American and he has told me many times about the corruption and everything else, I didn’t get this coming from the third world.

I will not type anymore except to say, in the face of tyranny, I become a huge rebel and I learned this in Cuba, I never intended to be a rebel but communism and tyrannical communists turned me into one real quick. It happened in school of course. And biden makes me feel rebellious and I can’t obey his crazy mandates. So I will not take the vaccine. I need no reason for saying no. The only thing going in my body is my beloved who I blog about all the time and God, also my current baby as I’m pregnant, non GMO foods and clean, not contaminated drinks, knowledge, and good vibes.

Watch my video (s) through the link below.

I’ll write another post to talk about my next steps. And you can ask if you have any questions.

With much love,

Eve