What I’m grateful for today. The time when I fell hard on my face.

I started writing this post on Sunday, it’s Thursday now… I was unwell then, now I am in the worse predicament of my life. But I will not ever stop seeing the light. The farther I fall, the stronger my come back!

Today (Sunday) I’m grateful to be alive and mostly well. I’m very grateful for my spiritual and healing tools such as my tarot cards, my crystals, and essential oils. I’m grateful for epsom salts baths, and candles. I’m grateful for prayer and meditation.

I’m mostly grateful for my children. I’ve spent so much time with them this weekend! Playing with Legos and paper dolls, drawing and coloring paper dolls, gardening, and creating a new garden relax hangout play area.

Bad news stroke me yesterday, so I had to look at what I do have and be grateful for that. I was pregnant, went to have my first ultrasound and found the baby had no heartbeat. Now I’m expecting a miscarriage. It’s very sad.

I’m actually grateful that I’m doing as well as I’m doing right now. I have really stay as calm as possible. I have my spiritual team and my tools to thank for how good I’ve done. (Sunday)

(Thursday) now though, things have escalated. It started with my body being really sad. I could not feel it with my head, only my body felt it. I knew I was sad because my body was showing the symptoms, I was unable to smile or laugh, unable to sing or dance. I was just getting by… I guess I forgot to take care of myself during this crucial time and I just descended as low as I could. Now today’s lowest is not as low as this would have been 5 or gosh, 10 years ago! I’m so much stronger now but I still forget to take care of myself and my needs.

My connection is safe and strong, I will remain in union. And I will beat all the odds as I always do. Bit I have to dig myself out of a hole I dug. I don’t even know how to talk about this and I don’t know if I will to you, and I don’t want to bother you with my issues.

I will however continue posting as much as I can bear and in fact, I had really fell in love with blogging prior to my bad news on Saturday and so I shall blog as therapy also.

Love and light to all reading this, thanks for caring,

Eve